I tried…

sorry BOOKED OUT I was hoping I was on the upswing but that didn’t last long. I was right back in my room that evening, feeling overwhelmed and weepy.  I’m back to feeling like crap and crying once again in a stupid diabetes education class. Just doing a meal planning exercise, with calorie and carb counting, overwhelmed me and brought me to tears. Damn it!

When I left the class today, I sat in my car and pulled out the card the nurse practitioner gave me last week for Behavioral Health. I know it’s time as I have been here before. I called and was told my wait would be 5 minutes to talk to someone, for their 15 minute intake interview. I waited and waited. Ten minutes later I hung up.

I went and picked up my new meds and when I got home, I called again. This time the receptionist who answered the phone asked me a couple of questions and then told me that they are booking out at the end of the year. “Really? I can’t get in to talk to someone until the end of the year?” She said, “Yes”. I asked her, “what’s the point?” and hung up.

Yep, this is just the way I want to continue to feel for the next 3 – 4 months. No rush guys. Don’t worry about me. I’ll be FINE! I just really don’t have the energy to figure this out but then again, I really have no other options.

So, putting one foot in front of the other and will see where it leads.

Bless you all.

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  1. I am so sorry that you’re struggling so much, friend. You will make it through this. You’re strong and beautiful and can conquer anything. I am diabetic, so if there is anything you’d like to talk about or you just want to rant away, email me. I am here to listen. You’ve been such a kind, supportive person for me, so I hope that you’ll lean on me in your time of need. Sending you lots of positive thoughts and gentle hugs. xxxxx

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  2. I understand my dear friend and I’m so sorry you are not able to talk to someone soon. Seeing depression up close and personal in my life and in close friends’ lives, it amazes me how this can actually be.
    In the meantime, know you are thought of and loved. Saying prayers and sending cyber hugs your way! ❤

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  3. I’m so sorry!!! I was so hoping things were getting better for you. Do you think there was any one thing that triggered this whole thing. I wish there were more places people could go to just to talk. So, so sorry :-(. Will be praying for you. You are such a help to so many….know that you have touched so many people and that we care for you and will be praying. I heard someone say this once and it has helped me…..I hope it will help you….if not just disregard it lol. It was “Don’t let Satan take you hostage!” You are a daughter of the most high!!

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